September 10, 2005

Steal away home

I should have been posting here - pictures of the two pairs of socks I knit during the trip out to Atlanta and back, and a picture of my complete Sockapaltwoza socks. But since we returned it's been hard to work up enthusiasm for knitting, or for anything else.

Allegra, the little grey kitty who posed for the picture on the main page of this knitting journal, has been fighting kidney disease for about a year now, but in the last week or two it was obvious she'd turned a corner and things were going rapidly downhill. I took her in for tests yesterday and they showed she was pretty much in complete kidney failure.

One of the hardest decisions to make is to determine whether you are keeping the animal alive because it is what is best for them, or because you cannot bear the thought of being without them. This morning the housecall vet came over and I held her in my arms as she gave her the injections to help her slip away.

Rest in peace, little girl.

How do I even begin to describe how much I am going to miss you?

Posted by Jenipurr at September 10, 2005 10:35 AM

I'm so sorry for your loss. It's so difficult to lose a member of the family. Best wishes.

Posted by: Janice Kang at September 10, 2005 11:04 AM

I'm so sorry for your loss. :(

Posted by: Emy at September 10, 2005 01:12 PM

I'm so sorry for your loss. Your decision was made out of love and it was the right one to make. Those who live in our hearts never leave us. Sleep well Allegra.

Posted by: Rita at September 10, 2005 02:50 PM

I'm so sad for your loss of your girl, Jen.

Allergra has my precious Jaxon and Mickie to play with, I lost my baby Jaxon on Feb. 13 and Mickie on June 2, both to renal disease.

I had myself a good cry when I read this, I wish you and yours comfort and peace.

Posted by: Debi at September 10, 2005 05:00 PM

I applaud and admire your courage to do the right thing by your friend. It must've been SO hard to put your personal feelings aside and do something out of pure love for your friend that you knew would bring you great pain.

It's very sad and a huge loss, but something tells me this kitty had a pretty awesome life. At least you can take some comfort in the fact that you provided a great home for her and you stood by her toward the end.

Hang in there. :-(

Posted by: paula at September 10, 2005 08:26 PM

I'm so sorry. Like the others have said, try to keep in mind in your suffering, you ended hers. That takes a very good person, and friend.

Posted by: Jenn at September 11, 2005 11:26 AM

I'm so sorry to hear it . . .

Posted by: chris at September 12, 2005 12:22 PM

May the Lady Bast skritch all her favorite places and let there be limitless yarny goodness for toys (not part of the knitting goddess's stash!).

Posted by: cynthia at September 12, 2005 10:12 PM

I am so sorry for your loss. I am gonna go home and play with my kitty tonight and think about your loss and hold her tight (for the about 0.005sec she will tolerate me) The world is a better place for the love we put into it.

Posted by: Brooke at September 13, 2005 01:16 PM

So sorry to hear about your loss!

Posted by: teresa at September 20, 2005 08:00 PM